Choices? Choices.

The choices we make it life affect us in more way than one. They can be a relief to an arduous situation that took it toll on you. They can be painful because the choice you made hurt others and you can’t take it back. They are hard and they are easy. But choices are made day to day and change the landscape we call life.

Often I wonder, when a choice is being made, will the outcome be a good one? Some decisions you do not want to make, but they must be made or you will forever have a knot in your stomach. That’s me right now! I have a knot in my stomach and in my heart.

This past year has been great, I have made some amazing friends, I have a fantastic social life. But it has come between me and my sons. Whom me the world to me. I came to the decision, the choice to make more time for my sons. They need me and I need them!

But the next choice I have to make is tough. It is eating me up inside. Do I work on a relationship or let it go? I feel stuck, this is a choice that is difficult because it affects two very important people in my life, my sons. Do I stay because it is the right thing to do, because we promised forever, because they want everything to go back to normal where the focus is on them? Or do I leave and suffer through a custody battle? Knowing that things will not be fair, they will not play fair. I am scared to death! Beside the children, there is the financial, because I was irresponsible in college, I have been trying to build myself up off and on for years. Because they have been the focus, I put my life on the back burner.

I have been shedding my skin little by little. And now it has affected a relationship that I am not sure can be rebuilt. I do not know what to do? All these changes and I cannot decide.

My heart is heavy, my mind clouded and I am deathly afraid of a choice that will change my life in a way that I don’t know if it will hinder or help it.

Change is easy, transition is hard. No matter how you like at it is a part of life. And often the one thing difficult to embrace. Choice affects our lives, it enhances whatever changes are going on in our lives.

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However, as long as we look within ourselves and know that we have done the right thing, we are all well on our way to happiness.